Mommy butterflies

   Today I woke up and was extra nauseous, didn't want to get out of bed and knew I had a busy day with the kids I nanny.
   After a hectic morning of kids screaming, whining..."I don't want to get up" and "I don't want to wear that!" We finally get out the door to drop Sophie off at school.
   Sophie, when she wants to be silly will call me Mommy but hasn't done this in awhile, not since I've been pregnant. Normally, I just say your being silly, mommy is at work...but today I got complete butterflies.... Not that Sophie was calling me Mommy but the fact in the short future some little human is going to be calling ME Mommy! I can't wait for that magical moment where my little one calls me Mommy for the first time. Until then I'll be pregnant and sassy <3

Where am I going to have my baby!?

   I've always figured your only option is to have a baby in a hospital, right? WRONG!....about five years ago when I started getting interested in maybe one day being a mommy I started my research. I watched countless documentaries and read books upon books on child care and development along with other mothers experiences. I found it all so interesting!
   I had no idea that the United Sates was the only place where we have babies in Hospital's....everywhere else they have birthing centers or have a midwife come to the comforts of home and deliver the baby. I feel like we have been so brainwashed into thinking that we can't do one of the most natural things that women have been doing for years. I feel like doctors and some not all nurses right out of school could truly care less about your experience and how you are treated while you are delivering your baby at the hospital, some may even try to convince you that you need to be induced or be given pitocin. I don't feel like it's necessary, when baby is ready to come out, they are ready to come out.
   I feel like a home birth or birthing center would be so much more personal and they wont try and talk me into rash discussions while I'm already stressed and in labor....so you would assume I would automatically have a home birth or have our baby at a birthing center....I wish it was that easy...so many factors come into play...money, insurance, medical...! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? I have so many options but yet they may be limited. I can get married to Tim, he has insurance but it's going to cost money per moth to add me to his insurance plan along with insurance doesn't even cover the cost of having a baby, along with we have no idea if he is going to be at his job much longer due to other bigger opportunists that will not have insurance right away. I can choice to get married after the baby is born and get on medical because I do qualify and then the costs are pretty much covered and will help out dramatically...normally I wouldn't want to lean on the government assistance BUT I feel like I've put SO much into the system and if I genuinely need the help I'm not going to be shy and not ask for the help if I qualify....BUT if I do medical I'm 99% sure I will have to have our baby in a hospital. I don't believe birthing centers or midwifes take medical....if I do just a midwife I do believe they only do cash or credit and may take some insurance plans...I'll have to do some more research on all of this...I'm just feeling torn and pretty much pushed into the medical side of things, it wont be the end of the word to have a baby in a hospital...it's just not my number one choice. BUT I need to remember god provides and he has a way of working things out. I'll keep y'all posted, until then I'm Pregnant and Sassy <3 

First Post and Seven Weeks

    The night I found out I was pregnant was full of so many emotions. I was Excited, Nervous, Happy, Exhausted and every other emotion under the sun, moon and stars. I couldn't believe I was going to be a MOMMY! It was finally my turn...Most of my friends already have a child or more and are already in per-school to the third grade. I've been waiting so long and I'm not saying this is even the "right" moment, it's NEVER the "right" time to have a baby, if you are financially ready then your relationship isn't or something traumatic will happen, or heaven forbid you have problems conceiving... it's life and bringing a baby into the world is a BIG responsibility regardless of what is going on in your personal life, you just make it work.
    Right now, I believe I'm Seven weeks along. I haven't been to the doctor yet but am going to schedule it in next week at my eight week mark. I'll have two weeks off paid (so nice) so I'll have some me time to get everything I need done. I'm currently working as a Nanny of two adorable children....great practice considering I'm nauseous as all heck right now working 50+ hours a week and running after two kids ages three and five.
     I've been so obsessive over every detail so far, some may think I'm going overboard but I feel like I can never learn to much or be to prepared right? I'm logging all my meals, calorie intake, sodium and sugar....just to make sure I'm in-taking enough calories and not indulging  in to much sodium and trying to keep it to only healthy natural sugars....definitely a challenge at times when I'm surrounded by donuts and cookies at work all day, but for the most part I've been really good with self control, along with 60 - 100 oz of water intake a day. I've also been weighting myself and taking measurements of my belly so I can see the exact progress of our babies growth and make sure I'm gaining enough weight. I started at 97lbs and 25 inches around my belly. then I went from 99lbs back down to 97lbs and am at 25.5 inches around my belly, I guess it's normal in the first trimester to fluctuate a little and only should gain one - five pounds in the first trimester.
    Today's challenge for myself was determining not only my babies Ethnicity but my own as well....all I knew was my dad was 100% Italian. I went ahead and asked both of my grandparents on my mothers side what they were and figured it out. Officially I'm 1/2 Italian, 1/8 German, 1/8 Czechoslovakian, 1/16 English and 3/8 Irish. I still need to figure out Tim's exact Ethnicity so I can accurately calculate our babies Ethnicity....but over all I feel accomplished with today's research.
   I still have so many questions and so much research to do, so I just write down all my questions and take it day by day to do the proper steps to make sure I have the best and most accurate answers...I'll of course ask my doctor but I feel like the Internet not only am I getting other mothers answers but I'm also getting multiple doctors opinions as well. I don't believe in trusting one person with all my questions so between my doctor and my second, third, and fourth opinion on the Internet I think I'll feel 100% confident with my choice in whatever I'm trying to figure out that day.
    I'm so excited and can't wait for next week to find a OBGYN and get my first ultrasound, start my blood tests and start getting situated. I'll probably do another post on if I'm going to have a home birth, birthing hospital birth or a hospital birth. I'm so torn and undecided. Until then, I'll be Pregnant and Sassy <3