Where am I going to have my baby!?

   I've always figured your only option is to have a baby in a hospital, right? WRONG!....about five years ago when I started getting interested in maybe one day being a mommy I started my research. I watched countless documentaries and read books upon books on child care and development along with other mothers experiences. I found it all so interesting!
   I had no idea that the United Sates was the only place where we have babies in Hospital's....everywhere else they have birthing centers or have a midwife come to the comforts of home and deliver the baby. I feel like we have been so brainwashed into thinking that we can't do one of the most natural things that women have been doing for years. I feel like doctors and some not all nurses right out of school could truly care less about your experience and how you are treated while you are delivering your baby at the hospital, some may even try to convince you that you need to be induced or be given pitocin. I don't feel like it's necessary, when baby is ready to come out, they are ready to come out.
   I feel like a home birth or birthing center would be so much more personal and they wont try and talk me into rash discussions while I'm already stressed and in labor....so you would assume I would automatically have a home birth or have our baby at a birthing center....I wish it was that easy...so many factors come into play...money, insurance, medical...! WHAT AM I GOING TO DO? I have so many options but yet they may be limited. I can get married to Tim, he has insurance but it's going to cost money per moth to add me to his insurance plan along with insurance doesn't even cover the cost of having a baby, along with we have no idea if he is going to be at his job much longer due to other bigger opportunists that will not have insurance right away. I can choice to get married after the baby is born and get on medical because I do qualify and then the costs are pretty much covered and will help out dramatically...normally I wouldn't want to lean on the government assistance BUT I feel like I've put SO much into the system and if I genuinely need the help I'm not going to be shy and not ask for the help if I qualify....BUT if I do medical I'm 99% sure I will have to have our baby in a hospital. I don't believe birthing centers or midwifes take medical....if I do just a midwife I do believe they only do cash or credit and may take some insurance plans...I'll have to do some more research on all of this...I'm just feeling torn and pretty much pushed into the medical side of things, it wont be the end of the word to have a baby in a hospital...it's just not my number one choice. BUT I need to remember god provides and he has a way of working things out. I'll keep y'all posted, until then I'm Pregnant and Sassy <3