The past week has been a challenge, but an eye opener. It's teaching me I'm stronger than I thought. I CAN do this. I've come to a point where yes, it's going to be hard being a single mama, but maybe this is what I was born to do....maybe I don't want to share her and all of the choices I get to make to raise her into a beautiful young women.
I've got a plane B, C and D in the works with many options. I'm so blessed to have so many people backing me up and supporting me through this big life choice.
I am calm and relaxed considering all that is going on because I know it's all going to work out and I trust god is guiding me right now to do what is best for Kaeley and I.
I have reached out to friends I've lost through out my time with Tim because he didn't like them and in a way brain washed me to not like them either. I'm so happy they understand what I'm going through and I have them back in my life.
I've learned I'm not alone, people, family...have been down the same road I've been down and they are giving me great advice that I take in like it's gold. I can't get enough advice,...some of it I leave at the door but a lot of it is helpful in what I'm dealing with day to day.
I've already made the change where I want to give birth....I was pushed into tri city hospital because that is what he wanted. I'm going to look into a birthing center tomorrow, because it's what has spoken to me, even before I was pregnant.
I may be uncomfortable because Kaeley is pushing out my ribs, sitting on my bladder and every time she moves she is kicking bones...but I just keep telling myself every time I'm in pain "I'm one step closer" Until next time I'll be pregnant and sassy <3
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