Half way mark

Sunday was my official half way mark. Things are getting less stressful in some areas and more stressful in other areas.

I'm still on the hunt for a job....my car is STILL in the shop and going to cost one arm, one leg and my sanity to get out. I've been relying on Tim's dad to drive me around, let's just say its about time to revoke his license.

My bankruptcy is officially filed! So I'm blessed and excited about that.

We are still waiting on our apartment to become available so we are patiently waiting.

We find out if we are having a boy or girl on July 2nd!!! I can't wait <3

I've been feeling overall pretty good, baby has been practicing back flips and moving around so much I have bruised ribs haha.

Seems like I'm right on track on my weight gain and my uterus is where it needs to be. Baby is six inches long now! So crazy! Time is flying by!!!! Until next time I'll be pregnant and sassy <3

19 weeks

19 weeks, one week until I'm at the half way mark. Time is truly flying by!

I'm still looking for employment... I've had a few interviews, but due to the summer every high school student is a "nanny" and work for less. I have an interview Tuesday, so I'm crossing my fingers.

Yesterday, on the way to see my mid wife my car took a dump and now is in the shop until monday....I feel so lost without my car and has made for a boring slow weekend.

I pretty much have heart burn all the time, but all nausea has gone away...just tired and needing little cat naps.

We passed our credit check for our three bedroom apartment and put half the deposit down...so next available apartment is ours!!! I hope someone gives notice this month, I want to start nesting! I've been going to child second hand stores just to check everything out and seems like I can get everything I need for baby on a tight budget, so we can 100% afford moving out and getting a new car eventually.

I've been looking up some classes, and they offer a class fully dedicated to cloth diapering... Something I never really thought about but may think about it if I know how to do it in the least gross way....I've only used disposable diapers but it seems like such a waist, and some new dippers have been giving babies chemical burns.

This blog has officially been all over the place, but I'm trying to multitask taking care of Autumn and trying not to go stir crazy with no car haha. Until next time, I'll be sassy and pregnant. 

Child book tears

I'm so pregnant its not even funny! I've probably read these two books to Sophie 100 times...now that I'm pregnant I can't get through half the book without busting into tears. It's not just books...it's commercials, seeing parents playing with their kids at the park....just about everything! I'm one big ball of stereotypical  emotions haha until next time I'll be pregnant and sassy <3

Baby kick! I think....

Today while laying Sophie down for her nap and watching doc mcstuffins with her I was laying very still and swear I felt him or her kick! It could have been my food settling in my tummy or maybe it was a kick :) either way I'll consider this the first magical baby kick! I can't wait for more kicks and hiccups and rolling arounds. This whole experience has been amazing in every way <3

Photo was taken today 17 weeks 4 days

Nanny vs Mama

This has been on my mind the last two weeks or so. I'm such a stricked schedule enforced nanny. Don't get me wrong, we have a ton of fun but they respect me.

When the kids parents are around its like I don't even know the kids....they have little respect for there parents and I, they run a muck, yell, scream, throw tantrums about anything and everything...as soon as mom and dad leave I start enforcing our routine and they snap out of it...any tantrum behavior lingering I just set them in time out and then talk to them...I will only need to do this some mornings or after they talk to there parents on the phone...after that they are fine! They do as they are told, take naps when I ask and follow the rules I've given them....all kids do act out here and there for attention or because they are tried or hungry.... normal...but for a solid hour of whining and tantrums are not.

I feel like the parents always overly call, text  or helicopter because they feel like there kids are out of control and don't know if I can handle it, but in reality because of structure it is always easy until they step in. When I tell them one is napping and the other is playing quite, they all have had the same reaction of what did you do with my kids... as if I stuffed them in a closet or something!

My concern is: are my kids going to do this to me? Am I going to get lazy and just let them walk all over me? Am I not going to care as much about schedule and discipline because its "easier"?

Every family I've nannied for its been the same deal as above...most of my friends that have kids (NOT ALL) but most have problems with raising there kids and let them run the show, so when they go to tell them no its a big drawn out ordeal...it's NEVER my place to tell a parent how to parent...that would lead to defensiveness, and who really wants to deal with that.

I don't feel like this will happen to me, I treat Autumn the same way as the kids I nanny, but with a lot more cuddling and hugs....but will it be different when I give birth and have this baby attached to my hip 24/7 will my effectiveness fade away and just get lost in bad habits and routine over the years?

Maybe because I've seen the rights and "wrongs" of raising children I can avoid this? I can be aware of the changes in behavior in my child and see what habits I'm in and change them before they turn into habits... Ultimately I feel like a child feed's off your habits and behavior's, so if your child is acting out its something the parents are doing or exposing them to.

I guess I won't REALLY know until I'm in the situation years from now. Until then I'll be pregnant and sassy <3

17 weeks and weekend fun

I'm 17 weeks! I only have a week and a half left of work and frantically trying to find a new one...something just part time, so I can contribute and not stress about bills and buying stuff for the baby at my own free will. ... It will happen, I just need to start thinking outside of the box. Maybe even waitress a few days a week to get an hourly and tips. I just need to make sure I have time for my doctors appointments and classes for the baby before anything right now because I have been neglecting. I'll find out gender in about two weeks, just need to schedule an ultrasound :)

We unofficially officially (makes no sense) but anything can change until it's put on legal paper names:

Boy: Kross Scott Kasner
Girl: Brook Kasner (still undecided about middle name) I like Grace though.

Tim is set on Brook and I'm not, I'm set on Kross but he isn't so we decide if its a girl I'll settle for Brook and if its a boy he will settle for Kross. Neither one of us HATE either name, just not our first picks.

Overall I'm feeling good, a little low energy in the morning and pretty much zobie at night but mid morning all the way to late afternoon I'm pretty high energy.

I allow myself one caffeinated pop a day... Not what I wanted to do, but I'm enjoying the little extra pep :)

This weekend was so much fun. It started with a tea party with Miss Autumn. Talking with eaglish accents, decaffeinated green tea and real gold plated China from England. She couldn't get over how pretty her cup was.

Autumn also lost her FIRST tooth with us! So exciting that we got to share this with her, I went all out :) I left a trail from the cracked window to her pillow of fairy dust, a note to autumn from the tooth fairy, $2 and then she went into the bathroom to find out that the tooth fairy had used the potty (fairy dust was left behind) and she left her all new tooth brushing supplies.

We had also gone to the wild west fest so she could ride the mechanical bull, see her favorite animal the peacock and she got to make her own cowgirl hat :)

We also enjoyed the rest of the afternoon at the pool in our matching mossy oak bikini's.

I loved that she was ecstatic all weekend, and not upset at any point. She needs that extra love with all the stress that is going on around her. I'm just happy I can help.

Until next time I'll be pregnant and sassy <3